Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Sorry that you can't see what I'm saying....

Since my accident and surgery I'm not allowed to shower without 'supervision' and I really didn't want to frighten anyone a la' a bad Rosie O'Donnell imitation, so I didn't participate this time. Besides, I'm just too vain until my black eye is completely gone. But DO go visit Linda...the musical extravaganza at the end is amazing!!! And there are great links posted there for the blog party....

Wednesday, September 24, 2008


This is WFMW for Shannon: I have a hard time “letting go” of clothing I should get rid of or no longer wear. To help identify what is no longer worn, about once every 6 months I turn all my hangers around backwards in my closet. As I wear things, I return the hangers to the ‘right’ way. At the end of the season anything still on a backwards hanger hasn’t been worn and it gets sent to Goodwill.

On another note I will be having wrist surgery this week. Please keep me in your prayers!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Where I've Been...

I’m a Christian so I don’t do karma, but apparently I’ve sown and reaped a little.
While participating on the fringe of a tp’ing adventure Sunday at the home of the other youth leader I stepped off his driveway and fell…breaking my
1. Nose
2. Wrist (“shattered” and “looks like gravel” in there were 2 things I overheard the dr. say)
3. Foot
I also have lots of beautiful road rash. When I can type more with my left hand I’ll post more…but until then please keep me in your prayers. Sidebar: Tanner broke his thumb at school on Tuesday, too. And the big Glorieta retreat is this weekend. I’m trying to keep my sense of humor. This is funny, right?

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

I can't believe I'm admitting this...

...but you really can't have it all. And I believe that God designed it this way so that we would truly long for heaven where we really can "have it all." But as long as we are earth-bound, I don't think it's possible to have it all. (See Gen 3:18...note that the thistles and thorns are FOR us...I think this is so we won't get so attached to and fond of this world that we will ache for a better place).

I'm talking about Sarah Palin. She's 44. Wife, mother, apparent vp nominee, governor, pro-life advocate, huntress and fisherwoman, self-described hockey mom and former beauty pageant winner. She appears to have it all. But my heart is sore for her. She is a mom to 5 beautiful children. The youngest, just several months old, was born with Down's Syndrome. Apparently this was diagnosed in utero, and I am happy that she holds the view that all life is precious and did not elect to terminate her pregnancy. Google her name and one of the nastier rumors that pops up is that this son, Trig, is in reality not her son, but her grandson, born to her daughter Bristol, age 17. I'm not buying that. Oh, and by-the-way--Bristol is unmarried and pregnant. Her mother is a strong advocate of abstinence education. Liberal media and others are jumping up and down with glee, proclaiming that this is proof that abstinence education doesn't work. I am not going to criticize Governor Palin. She is receiving plenty of that without my $.02. I have teenagers. I have high expectations and hopes for them that they will not have premarital sex. I have no reason to believe that any of them will engage in this practice and all of them have committed to remaining pure and various purity conferences that they've been a part of. But beyond a shadow of a doubt, I know that I (me, Pam) can not control whether or not this happens. I also know that I am all up in my kids' business. And without the blessing of spending time--unhurried, big chunks of it, with no plans or demands--with my kids I would not be able to be "up in their business." Being able to be in touch with the intimate and intricate day-to-day details of my kids lives is what really makes my heart jump. What jazzes me and a big reason for living. I am a busy, busy person. Maybe too busy. I am pretty-much full time on staff at my church as a ministry assistant. I work closely with the administrative details as well as play a big part in the youth ministry. I am an independent notary signing agent, a job which requires me to be very flexible time-wise and put in long hours a couple of days a month. I do, however, have the advantage of deciding if I am becoming too bogged down with the notary gig--I can turn things down if my life is too hectic. I have the best of both worlds. But I do not have it all. Neither does Governor Palin. Would her family benefit from her being more available to them? I believe so. Absolutely. My children, family and home are my calling. My true mission field. The blessings I receive from my job with the church are innumerable. But they don't even begin to measure up with the mother-gig stuff. I don't pretend to know how much time she spends with her family, or how much her husband is able to be with them. But I suspect that time is limited, and precious. So my heart is sore for the Palin family. Now they are dealing with a teen pregnancy, which must be difficult all on its own, much less with the whole country watching. And another child born with disadvantages that are bound to impact his health. And they have 3 other kids. And their life is under a microscope right now. And momma is a busy woman. Maybe too busy. My head would explode. It comes down to this: we choose what we invest ourselves in, where we spend our time, how deep of an imprint we are leaving. I am reminded by this quote from C.S. Lewis:

"People often think of Christian morality as a kind of bargain in which God says, 'If you keep a lot of rules I'll reward you, and if you don't I'll do the other thing.' I do not think that is the best way of looking at it. I would much rather say that every time you make a choice you are turning the central part of you, the part that chooses, into something a little different from what it was before. and taking your life as a whole, with all your innumerable choices, all your life long you are slowly turning this central thing into either a heavenly creature or a hellish creature: either a creature that is in harmony with God, and with other-creatures, and with itself, or else into one that is in a state of war and hatred with God, and with its fellow-creatures and with itself."

So I am choosing what part of all I want a part of. I don't want to start a war with ANYONE about their choices. I know that I am blessed to have had the choices I have and do have. Others may not have that kind of advantage. Please pray for me that I am choosing rightly. But my whole thing is, you really can't have it all. Choose wisely what part of all you want to take home with you.