This just got real...
So today I packed my bag. I am lingering in a twilight of horrible waiting. My anxiety level is pretty high. As of Friday, insurance denied approval for a bone marrow transplant. Apparently I'm not sick enough. At least not yet. Without a transplant, my doctor tells me I probably won't live to see my youngest grandchild start kindergarten. With it, I could die anyway. Or have multiple organ failure. Or develop a terrible thing called GVD, which stands for Graft vs. Host disease. I'm the Host. The Graft is what is supposed to keep me alive. This is big scary stuff. I won't quote statistics. They aren't pleasant. And they don't really matter, unless you are a statistic. So I am concentrating on thinking that THIS will heal me. THIS will be a long haul, but it will be worth it. THIS is what I am supposed to do. I am surrounded by a huge tribe of people who provide me with support. I call them my Jesus-with-skin-on people. I will write more abo